My heart is at war with itself
It is full of gratitude for the God's blessings in my life
But there is a longing waiting to be filled

My heart is pulled in two directions
It is full of joy from time with loved ones
But there is an ache for a family of my own

My heart is learning to balance in contentment
It is lifted by the laughter with friends
But deflated by moments of loneliness

My heart is a beautiful contrast of emotion
It is full of love and joy in God's love
And met with peace and comfort when it aches

I find such joy in spending time with friends and families
I fight to stop those moments from being laced with ache and longing
But pressing in to that allows a deeper appreciation for it

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